tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6982334618825347432024-03-13T23:07:28.701-07:00Only You"Whom have I in heaven but You? And there is none upon earth that I desire besides You. My flesh and my heart fail; but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."
Psalm 73:25-26Kimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.comBlogger29125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-698233461882534743.post-60656936000946824382009-07-28T16:44:00.000-07:002009-07-28T16:47:53.373-07:00Look, look, look...I posted.I would just like to say that Blogger has kinda come and gone like <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Xanga</span> did. But I'm bringing it back. :)<br /><br />There has been so much that has happened since I last posted, that I can't even begin to talk about it. So I won't. All I will say is that the only thing that has been constant, is my God's love. The one constant through it all.<br /><br />My prayer today, as it was last night... "God, fill my heart with Your love, so that there may be no room for anything else."Kimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-698233461882534743.post-80196505368628848932009-02-03T07:21:00.000-08:002009-02-03T07:38:51.224-08:00I am Writing a Blog..because I haven't done that since October. But I sit here with the same problem. I'm not sure what to write about. There is school, which is almost over. I am in the middle (well more near the end) of two online <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">RCC</span> classes, which are very time consuming. I mean really, they end up being like 6 week classes so they have something for us to do like every minute of the week. And then I will be taking my last class at <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">CBU</span> for my degree. Operations Management. With Dr. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Pardee</span>. I don't know if you guys know the story behind this, so I will share it one more time. As a Business major, you have to take Business Stats. After you pass Business Stats, you then take Operations Management. Well I had Stats with <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">Pardee</span> last June. It was all going fine, until somehow he did not receive my last assignment...the one worth the most points, the one that made me fail the class without having it. Yeah...it was no good. I spent like two months trying to work things out with him, because I had done the work and turned it in, so I felt a little cheated...and he wanted to make sure that I actually did the work, and wasn't just trying to get a grade. So we went back and forth, I eventually got the Dean involved...and three months later I had a B in the class. However, by that time, Operations Management had already come and gone. I would have been able to graduate in December if everything would have worked out, but God had bigger plans I guess. So now I am taking the next available class...and since I am a night student, this is the only one that is available. Pray for me. Although I am pretty good at letting things go, I can't help but think this is going to be a really hard class for me. Other than that I graduate in three months (if everything goes well). I can't <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">believe</span> it. It has literally flown by. Graduation always leaves me a little sentimental. It just seems weird to be shutting a whole part of my life. Four years that have been the most *insert <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">adjective</span> here* of my life. It has really been a whole slew of things for me. And it is coming to an end...to what? I really don't know. But God does, and the more that I rest and trust in that...the better off I will be.<br /><br />Work is going really well. There have been a lot of changes that have really made me enjoy my job...which I didn't think I would ever say. I don't know what I am going to do with it. There are a lot of <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">opportunities</span> opening up, so I am just going to wait and see what happens, and then move from there. Lord, let me not move unless You move me. <br /><br />My walk has been interesting. It seems at times that <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">adjective</span> is the only one that fits. There has been a person in my life lately that has <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">challenged</span> me in such a way that it has pushed me on to something good. I think that I needed that, and I know that God knew that. So I am thankful for that, but a little cautious...I am able to change myself for one person without even knowing it. So I am doing my best to make sure that it is all coming out of a desire that I have for my God...and not a desire I have to please this person. <br /><br />I have been realizing how lucky I am to have the friends that I do. I mean God really knows what He is doing. There are so many great people that have impacted my life, and I am really so lucky to know them, let alone call them friends. I just wish that I was better at showing it. But I am trying. I need to be less selfish...and I need to remember that I NEED people. I don't like to share my struggles, or my worries, or my faults...but that is not how God designed me...He created me to be <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">surrounded</span> by the church so that I can be built up, so that I can see Him more clearly, so that I can learn to love. <br /><br />All pretty random I know, but this is my life lately.Kimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-698233461882534743.post-18754697878352812652008-10-27T10:05:00.000-07:002008-10-27T10:16:03.211-07:00I Am Falling in Love With Hillsong...Probably because my church uses them a lot. This song is amazing...<br /><br />All for Love - Hillsong<br /><br />All for love a Father gave<br />For only love could make a way<br />All for love the heavens cried<br />For love was crucified<br /><br />Oh how many times have I broken Your heart<br />But still You forgiveIf only I ask<br />And how many times have You heard me pray<br />Draw near to me<br /><br />Everything I need is You<br />My beginning, my forever<br />Everything I need is You<br /><br />Let me sing all for love<br />I will join the angel song<br />Ever holy is the Lord<br />King of Glory<br />King of all<br /><br />Oh how many times have I broken Your heart<br />But still You forgive<br />If only I ask<br />And how many times have You heard me pray<br />Draw near to me<br /><br />Everything I need is You<br />My beginning, my forever<br />Everything I need is You<br /><br />Everything I need is You<br />My beginning, my forever<br />Everything I need is You<br /><br />All for a love a Saviour prayed<br />Abba Father have Your way<br />Though they know not what they do<br />Let the Cross draw man to You<br /><br />Everything I need is You<br />My beginning, my forever<br />Everything I need is You<br /><br />Everything I need is You<br />My beginning, my forever<br />Everything I need is YouKimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-698233461882534743.post-51553152091990254822008-10-27T06:38:00.001-07:002008-10-27T06:38:52.384-07:00So True!"The greatest single cause of atheism in the world todayIs Christians who acknowledge Jesus with their lipsThen walk out the door and deny him by their lifestyle.That is what an unbelieving world simply finds unbelievable."<br /><br />I stole this from Jo. :)Kimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-698233461882534743.post-83613688958137885142008-10-22T14:21:00.000-07:002008-10-22T14:33:51.583-07:00I Haven't Written Much Lately...There is a reason for that. I have come to a place in my life where I have no idea who I am. I mean, I know that our purpose is found in Him, but where does that leave me. Who am I? I see people who may struggle with things, and kinda have no idea what they are doing, but they know who they are. They have things about them that they do, that are unique to them, that when it comes down to it, that is who they are. The more I <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">surround</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">myself</span> with people that can define themselves, the more I become <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">ambiguous</span>. Just kinda empty. I guess that is the best way to describe it. Void of anything important. Again, not in <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">reference</span> to my life, but in <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">reference</span> to me as a person. I am...plain. And I have fought against that for so long. I do that in new cars, in new clothes, in things I can buy, in anything that will make me stand out of at least a minute. And then it is gone, and I am back to just being plain. I don't have anything that defines me. No way to distinguish myself from anyone else. Everything that I do, for the most part at least, has been influenced by the people around me, and you can see that in the way that I change based on the person I have been spending the most time with. <br /><br />I used to think it was a good thing. To not have a style, to be able to fit in with whatever circumstance or thing was going on around me, but lately it has become more of a burden. If I do not even know how I feel most comfortable...how do I know who I even am? <br /><br />I don't know...maybe it is just a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">different</span> form of insecurity. The fear of never being special enough. Never standing out. Regardless, it has been bothering me lately. And yet, the apathetic side of me takes over and doesn't encourage me to change it. Pointless. <br /><br />Yesterday was three years since James died. Three years. I didn't even remember until this morning. I guess that fits...Kimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-698233461882534743.post-44630509065162172222008-10-03T10:15:00.000-07:002008-10-03T10:17:46.600-07:00Appropriate"We will all come to the point in our life where we have to admit that we feel defeated, that something has conquered us. We must change, not because we want to, but because we desperately have to. We can not take life in its current suffocating state, even to admit such desperation shows that we are feeling deserted, wandering the barren desert, a shell of our former selves. It is only up from here, it is impossible to sink any lower into ourselves or our circumstances. But we can be salvaged, a deliverance. No vice can stand, no fix can take. The thorn in the side can be removed, but you have to be willing to admit and surrender. Surrender your habits, your lifestyle, your past, your present, and your future. This is your new surrender. The new surrender."<br /><br />-Stephen ChristianKimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-698233461882534743.post-33854790361037836572008-09-17T10:57:00.000-07:002008-09-17T11:11:41.558-07:00"And I'll Take the Truth at Any Cost"So lately, this has been a theme in my life. Truth. In more ways than one. As I expressed in my last post, my desire is to be <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">transparant</span> in my life. I want to be able to tell someone that they can trust me and mean it. I want the <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">lieing</span> to stop. A hard thing to do, but something that is necessary. Something that I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">beleive</span> will be a huge step in me growing as a person. Learning to take responsibility for my actions, and no longer being afraid of people's opinion of me.<br /><br />This is also a theme I want to see worked out in relationships in my life. I will take the Truth about people, about their feelings, about how we relate together, at any cost. I feel so often that since I know I can't be trusted, that I do not trust others. A small slip, can break the <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">fragil</span> trust i give someone in the beginning. I'm not sure if that is good or not. Maybe I trust people to easily, and trust should be gained. Maybe I don't trust people enough and trust should be given until it is lost. I don't know. But the thing is, I desire truth. I would prefer to know the worst about someone, or how they feel, then go on living a lie with them. <br /><br />And yet there is so much more than that. Jesus Himself said, "I am the Way, the TRUTH, and the Life". I desire His Truth. Him. All that He is. I desire that, above all. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">Ahh</span>...the words that I wish I could say honestly. The truth is, I don't desire Him above all, but another great truth, He is showing me how to do this more and more every day. Everyday I find myself desiring Him more than I had before. It is a great thing. A desire I don't think I have had in a long time. He has a long way to take me, and that is a great thing. That means the more time I get to spend with Him. The truth is, I can't survive without Him. So the more that He builds or requires this desire for Him, the better it is for me. Selfish.<br /><br />In the end, may all glory go to HimKimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-698233461882534743.post-26660075092391677262008-09-09T17:16:00.000-07:002008-09-09T17:34:26.188-07:00Where I have been latelyI feel that this is not only a question I have been asked a lot, but a question I have been asking myself a lot lately.<br /><br />Where have I been?<br /><br />The easy answer, at home. Sitting. Reading. Being lazy. Not doing much. Just living...kinda.<br /><br />The not so easy answer, I have no idea. I have been floating though ideas, through emotions, through thoughts, through situations. I haven't really been grounded in a while. So floating...kinda.<br /><br />At <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Sandals</span> on Sunday, the message challenged me...as always. It was about being real, a theme I see a lot in them. But it was about being real with everyone. This idea brought a lot of attention to an area in my life that I struggle with a lot. I won't necessarily say most often, because there are so many things that I struggle with that I am not really sure which one wins out, but I know that the frequency of this one makes it a huge thing in my life. Lying. It is strange how I can lie to people often, and yet when I tell them that I lie, they choose to think that THAT is not true. I mean really. I lie often. And when I say often, I mean often. About stupid stuff. But the more that I think about it the more that I realize that I do it ALL the time. I can't think of one person I haven't lied to. I do it. And the problem is, that I don't even think about it anymore. It just kinda happens, comes out, and I let it go. I am not saying this to say that I am going to change, or that I will never lie again, that would just be adding to the cycle. But I am saying this to let you know I guess. There are so many things I am not truthful about. So many times that I am not honest. So many things that you can't <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">believe</span>. I am not a person you should trust.<br /><br />That being said, I am trying. Pastor Matt encouraged people to write down the things that we struggle with most on a band around our arms. It is this bright green thing that clashes with everything. Thus the point. So when someone stares and asks us what it is...we tell them. It says that I struggle with lying, pride, fear, doubt, and unbelief. And the things that I am hiding most are out there. For everyone to see. And know. And I am exposed.<br /><br />And I am exposed. Interesting isn't it? How the thing we sometimes fear most is being found out, and yet Jesus Himself said, "The Truth shall set you free".<br /><br />Freedom...<br /><br />I don't know where I am, and as graduation and life approaches, I have even less of an idea of where I am going.<br /><br />I am here.<br /><br />I have been here.<br /><br />And as long as I stay here, I hope that a better version of me starts to shine through.Kimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-698233461882534743.post-32991152704160324812008-08-08T09:49:00.000-07:002008-08-08T09:50:42.053-07:00Just a ReminderHoly, my God You are worthy of all my praise.<br /><br /><br /><br />Holy, my God You are worthy of all my praise.Kimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-698233461882534743.post-60881039086480624852008-07-28T16:08:00.000-07:002008-07-28T16:12:02.605-07:00RememberMay I always remember how great the love of my Savior is toward me. If I could keep this in the forefront of my mind, I think my life would really be worth something. <br /><br />"See, I have inscribed you on the palms of My hands" Isaiah 49:16aKimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-698233461882534743.post-78514421791423503522008-07-24T10:36:00.000-07:002008-07-24T10:39:35.153-07:00An UpdateI just wanted to let you all know how the Lord has been working lately. <br /><br />My car got broken into, another thing I tend to put before Him. It is His now. Along with everything they took.<br /><br />But as for the other things,<br /><br /><span style="font-size:180%;">All of this is for His Glory</span><span style="font-size:100%;">. </span><br /><br />In one way or another, for some reason, this has all happened so that He will be Glorified. <br /><br />I am in the process of learning that. He is always willing to teach me. <br /><br />If it Glorifies You, Jesus bring the rain.Kimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-698233461882534743.post-36199428885934865432008-07-14T10:11:00.000-07:002008-07-14T10:22:05.374-07:00One Last ThingSo I am not sure how many of you know all that has been transpiring in the last few weeks. I won't fill in all the details, that usually ends up being too long of a story, but I would like to share all that God has shown me through this, and how He has shown me that this might just be a continual process.<br /><br />God will <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">break</span> down idols in your life. In different ways, in different situations, God will break them down. He will not stand for it. You ask Him to make a change, ask Him to do something great with your life, know that He will. But the idols must come down first. I do not mean to say that it will be God that physically does it, there is a great amount of <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">effort</span> that we must put out, but He will do it. <br /><br />A few areas He has done this for me:<br /><br />Family- I must remember that God is the one that directs my families path, not me. it is His work, not mine. <br /><br />Friends- The Lord gives and takes away, blessed be the name of the Lord.<br /><br />School- No matter how much I don't like it, it can still become an idol.<br /><br />Work- When I start taking things for granted, He shows that He is able to take it all away.<br /><br />Financially- To whom much is given, much is required. I need to not let my <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">dependence</span> be on monetary things. <br /><br />And finally, last night, relationships. This one I will kept to myself for a while. But God has shown me great things through a person and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">experience</span>, I wouldn't change for the world.<br /><br />I know all of this might be a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">little</span> scattered. But it is all so true. Each of these things could be expanded 10 fold. But there is simply not time. <br /><br />Moral of the story...God is God. When things get put out of place, everything gets all messed up.<br /><br />I pray that you all are blessed. Please pray for me, even though this is where I need to be, my emotions will try to creep up every once in a while. But God is greater than all.Kimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-698233461882534743.post-17155593351160784632008-07-03T14:21:00.000-07:002008-07-03T14:29:09.183-07:00I Cried Out to God and He Heard Me and Answered My PrayerI cried out to God with my voice-To God with my voice;<br />And He gave ear to me.<br />In the day of my trouble I sought the Lord; <br />My hand was stretched out in the night without ceasing; <br />My soul refused to be comforted.<br />I remembered God, and was troubled; <br />I complained, and my spirit was overwhelmed. <br /><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Selah</span>. <br />You hold my eyelids open;<br />I am so troubled that I cannot speak. <br />I have considered the days of old,<br />The years of ancient times. <br />I call to remembrance my song in the night;<br />I meditate within my heart,<br />And my spirit makes diligent search. <br />Will the Lord cast off forever? <br />And will He be favorable no more? <br />Has His mercy ceased forever? <br />Has His promise failed forevermore? <br />Has God forgotten to be gracious? <br />Has He in anger shut up His tender mercies? <br /><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Selah</span>. <br />And I said, “This is my anguish;<br />But I will remember the years of the right hand of the Most High.” <br />I will remember the works of the LORD;<br />Surely I will remember Your wonders of old. <br />I will also meditate on all Your work,<br />And talk of Your deeds. <br />Your way, O God, is in the sanctuary;<br />Who is so great a God as our God? <br />You are the God who does wonders;<br />You have declared Your strength among the peoples. <br />You have with Your arm redeemed Your people,<br />The sons of Jacob and Joseph. <br /><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Selah</span>. <br /><br />Psalm 77:1-15<br /><br />I read this last night, and although I don't fully understand, I know that the Lord has heard my prayers. In His time, in His way, He will answer it. Oh what a Loving God we serve.Kimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-698233461882534743.post-31818613776763883792008-06-27T15:46:00.000-07:002008-06-27T15:55:18.745-07:00It has been a while...This title has a few meanings.<br /><br />First, the obvious one. I have not updated this thing in forever. Something that <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Dain</span> brought to my <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">attention</span> a few days ago. I guess, I haven't really had much to say. Not too much has changed, not too much going. Just not much. That and I found that <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">every time</span> I do post somethings, it just never comes out right. It never feels like I am being real or something. But I am posting...I need to. It is kinda a way to start again.<br /><br />The second being that it has been a while since things have been the way they are. The next few statements are true, as much as some <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">people</span> may not <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">believe</span> it. It has been a while since I was anywhere near God, let alone actually having a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">relationship</span> with Him. That statement is interesting to me. I <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">believe</span> in the idea of "once saved, always saved". And yet, my <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">relationship</span> with God lately had me doubting exactly that. If I can really go through my life with no regard to God, am I still saved, was I ever? The truth is I don't know. Honestly. Here is what I do know. I know that my heart has turned to Him once again. There was no exact moment when it happened. No alter call <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">experience</span>, just a process of a few months, and the outcome is me remembering all that He is, and the amount that I need Him everyday. And now the past is the past. All that I needed to do was remember my first weeks, and return to my First Love. I guess when you heart chases after other types of loves, it has no time to chase after God. But here I am again...<br /><br /> And the third reason...I miss my best friend. And it seems like forever since I have seen her. I know that the Lord is with her though, and that He is doing great things with her as well. But I can't wait to see her again. Love you Leese.<br /><br /><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">Hmm</span>...way more going on, but expect posts more often, at least that is my goal. We will see how that works out.Kimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-698233461882534743.post-44202803220156663282008-04-23T15:58:00.000-07:002008-04-23T16:02:53.277-07:00A Song Running Through My Ears"I love You. My heart is <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Yours</span> only <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Yours</span> Jesus. I want to give you all of me. I love You. I love You. My heart is <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Yours</span> only <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">Yours</span>. I long to give You all of me...my everything. My everything. Thoughts of You and how You've changed me...fill my mind."<br /><br />What an amazing love song to a Savior. The purest form of love. How I long to make this my hearts cry. <br /><br />Until then...I just listen and pray...Kimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-698233461882534743.post-28749778956661513682008-04-21T10:19:00.000-07:002008-04-21T10:29:49.804-07:00Isaiah 6:1So with everything going on lately, the one conclusion I have come to is that God is still on His throne. And more than that, He has always been there.<br /><br />Blessings have bee poured out on me lately, not because of anything in <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">particular</span>, but for the simple reason that I now see that everything that happens has God's workmanship all over it.<br /><br />Take last night for example, one of the best times of fellowships Alyssa and I have had in a LONG time. And you know why? God has continued to take us through the same situations at the same time. I think that He does this so that at the end of it we can both sit together and love our Savior. Pretty sweet idea.<br /><br />Okay, so moving on to church. I think I need to find a home. Since I left Harvest, I have never really felt a sense of being where I belonged. This poses a problem in that I know that God has called me out of Harvest. For the past few months I feel as if I have been swaying back and forth trying to find a place I belong. I know that I need to be in fellowship, and there has been proof that I do not survive long outside of fellowship, worship, and teaching. And <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Norco</span> has been great. They have been loving and exhorting. My only problem...I don't make friends well. I have people there that I love and care about, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Dain</span> and Anthony, in <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">particular</span>, and they have been great as far as trying their best to help me feel at ease. But I am able to go and sit by myself and leave. I do not feel like I have connected with anyone that I didn't know from Harvest. This is my fault. I do not step outside of my comfort zone much. And the idea of walking up and talking to people that I do not know, frankly <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">freaks</span> me out. So I feel...stuck I guess.<br /><br />The whole point of all of this is to ask for you guys to pray for me. Pray that I will find somewhere that feels like home. And if <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">Norco</span> is that place for me, pray that the Lord will bring me out of my comfort zone and work in my heart.<br /><br />God is too good to keep silent about. He truly is too good.Kimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-698233461882534743.post-27897228847890615532008-04-03T10:22:00.000-07:002008-04-03T10:28:11.407-07:00FriendshipI have been thinking a lot about <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">friendhsip</span> lately. The way that things change the way that friendships have the ability to be molded into something <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">completly</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">differnt</span> than they ever started out being. There may only be a few that I choose to invest a significant amount of time in, but there are many that I hold dear to my heart. Many of these friendships can go a few weeks or months without significant interaction, but when we do get the opportunity to reunite, it is as if only a few days had gone by. I do cherish these friendships. <br /><br />I often feel like in order to invest time in people I am not used to seeing, it takes a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">gret</span> deal of effort, a great amount of planning, and a whole lot of energy that I don't have. But I am often reminded that when I do these things that I am more blessed than I can even imagine. <br /><br />There are things that will change in life, nothing ever stays the same. But I have found that I will have friends that will be with me until the day that we die. And I only hope that you are able to find the same.<br /><br />Friends truly are a blessing from God, if you will allow them to be...Kimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-698233461882534743.post-32957805934602014862008-03-20T08:41:00.000-07:002008-03-20T08:50:29.116-07:00No real reasonThe only thing that I know for sure, is that I in fact know nothing.<br /><br />Please continue to pray for my brother. It would seem that things got worse last night. No real news to report, I will let you know what has happened when I find out more.<br /><br />I was listening to a podcast by Francis Chan this morning and he was talking a little about the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">ineffectiveness</span> of the church. I had for a long time wondered why it was that I was so <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">ineffective</span> as a Christian, and he really brought it out into light. I find these things hard to relate to in my life, for I feel like my life lately has started to spin, but I know that when the time comes that I land, that I will desire to land somewhere around here. He said, that the reason that Christians are so ineffective is not because they are too radical that is scars <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">people</span>, but that they are not living the things that they are saying. If I really <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">believe</span> that the God I serve is so great, why do I <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">flippantly</span> come before Him? If I really believe that the God I serve is so great, why don't I actually serve Him? If I really <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">believe</span> that there is a such thing as Heaven and Hell, why don't I shout it from the roof tops, or at least warn people? If I really <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">believe</span> that God is able to change lives, why does it seem I am not different than the person that I was before God? If I really <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">believe</span> all the things that God has said in <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">His</span> Word, why do I not follow it? The list goes on and on and on...<br /><br />His point, and mine I guess, is not that I am <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">ineffective</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">because</span> I stand out, but that I claim to follow something that makes me different from most of the world, and yet I look and act like everyone else. Maybe the reason that we as <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">Christians</span> are so <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">ineffective</span> is because the world can not tell us apart from itself.<br /><br />I hope to never get to the point where I blend in.Kimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-698233461882534743.post-11397975275666656682008-02-20T10:19:00.000-08:002008-02-20T10:25:42.081-08:00Demetri MartinOkay, so Alyssa showed me this comedian, and man he is too funny. I have added a link to the video below, but there are so many other ones on YouTube. Go check him out. You will not be dissapointed. :)<br /><br /><a href="http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-6710303372197784476&q=demetri+martin+site%3Avideo.google.com&total=11&start=0&num=10&so=0&type=search&plindex=0">Check out the video here.</a>Kimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-698233461882534743.post-50758279246795487382008-02-15T11:03:00.000-08:002008-02-15T11:18:20.589-08:00Supporting companies that don't support our troops?I received this e-mail yesterday from my uncle. I have no knowledge of it's validity, so do not take this as Gospel truth. But it poses a very interesting question. The e-mail follows. <br /><br /><span style="color:#990000;">Guess I won't be drinking Starbucks anymore! ! ! </span><br /><br /><span style="color:#990000;">Recently Marines in Iraq wrote to Starbucks because they wanted to Let them know how much they liked their coffees and to request that they send some of it to the troops there. Starbucks replied, telling the Marines thank you for their support of their business, but that Starbucks does not support the war, nor anyone in it, and that they would not send the troops their brand of coffee. </span><br /><br /><span style="color:#990000;">So as not to offend Starbucks, maybe we should not support them by buying any of their products! I feel we should get this out in the open. I know this war might not be very popular with some folks, but that doesn't mean we don't support the boys on the ground fighting street -to-street and house-to-house. </span><br /><br /><span style="color:#990000;">If you feel the same as I do then pass this along, or you can discard it and no one will ever know.</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#000000;">After reading this, I did what most people do, I deleated it. But it brought a question to me later, how do I feel about companies that do not support the soldiers. There are more than enough people that don't support the war, and I don't think you have to, but I think that when it comes down to it, we should always support our soldiers. </span><br /><br />So I post this, really to see what you all think. If there was a company that you knew did not support our soldiers, would you still support it? Why or why not? I think that this can go many ways, and I am hoping it opens up for some room to debate.<br /><br />Have a great day!Kimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-698233461882534743.post-84190662060106358032008-02-08T15:24:00.000-08:002008-02-08T15:30:23.810-08:00Good for a Laugh<a href="http://bp3.blogger.com/__R6tpcIDGrI/R6zk88veWuI/AAAAAAAAAAg/IvWN380Hh28/s1600-h/Ugly+Dog.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5164754608435649250" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://bp3.blogger.com/__R6tpcIDGrI/R6zk88veWuI/AAAAAAAAAAg/IvWN380Hh28/s400/Ugly+Dog.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>Everytime I see this picture I can't help but laugh. I hope it does the same for you. To be fair, Alyssa is the one who took this picture of what can be considered the ugliest dog in the world. No really, he wins contests. :) The caption for this picture is, "He has no teeth on the side, so his tongue chills outside his mouth" which adds to the humor of the picture. There are a few more pictures, if you want to see them click <a href="http://calbaptist.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=30160749&id=139001238#pid=30160750">here</a> or <a href="http://calbaptist.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=30160749&id=139001238#pid=30160749">here</a>. I really hope this brought a smile to your face on this great Friday!</div>Kimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-698233461882534743.post-25441819429513845862008-02-07T09:57:00.000-08:002008-02-07T10:14:59.173-08:00The Great DebateFor we know that the law is spiritual, but I am carnal, sold under sin. For what I am doing, I do not understand. For what I will to do, that I do not practice; but what I hate, that I do. If, then, I do what I will not to do, I agree with the law that it is good. But now, it is no longer I who do it, but the sin that dwells in me. For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh) nothing good dwells; for to will is present with me, but how to perform what is good I do not find. For the good that I will to do, I do not do; but the evil I will not to do, that I practice. Now if I do what I will not to do, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me. I find then a law, that evil is present with me, the one who wills to do good. For I delight in the law of God according to the inward man. But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. O wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? I thank God-through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, with the mind I myself serve the law of God, but with the flesh the law of sin. Romans 7:14-25<br /><br />...<br /><br />...<br /><br />...<br /><br />...<br /><br />...<br /><br />...<br /><br />There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus. Romans 8:1<br /><br /><br />Normally when I post about scripture, I will just copy and paste it from <a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/">Bible Gateway</a>, but for some reason today I felt the need to type them out, to really write as Paul would have been writing. To remind myself that as he wrote this, he was not the picture of perfection I sometimes get, but he was a sinner struggling to find God's grace in the midst of his sin. Thankfully, he wrote Romans 8:1, to let us know that he not only found God's grace, but that same grace is available to us.Kimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-698233461882534743.post-86905225498824935192008-02-05T09:19:00.001-08:002008-02-05T09:24:08.453-08:00Super TuesdayI am interested to see what your opinion is of the election. More specifically, who you voted for and why. I know there are a lot of people that do not feel comfortable with sharing that kind of information, so if that is the case, then just tell me what you think about it so far. If you didn't vote, why? Some people say that you should never talk about religion and politics, but what better way to get people to talk?<br /><br />I am interested to see how this turns out.Kimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-698233461882534743.post-49063342310495862812008-01-31T09:16:00.000-08:002008-01-31T09:54:32.883-08:005 Reasons I Hate Public Restrooms<a href="http://bp2.blogger.com/__R6tpcIDGrI/R6IJyMveWtI/AAAAAAAAAAY/CDQP1Rf7Zks/s1600-h/Dane+Cook.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5161698880938466002" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://bp2.blogger.com/__R6tpcIDGrI/R6IJyMveWtI/AAAAAAAAAAY/CDQP1Rf7Zks/s200/Dane+Cook.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>I went into a public restroom last week at Disneyland and found a few of the many reasons I hate public restrooms. I would like to share a few with the Blogger community, to see if there is anyone out there that has had the same experience. I hope you all enjoy.</div><br /><div><strong></strong></div><br /><div><strong>1. Everything is Wet</strong></div><br /><p>Yes, this is taken directly from a Dane Cook joke, but the truth behind it is still there. When walking into a public restroom, there is a great chance that there is water on the floor, on the sink, and sporadic other places that you would not expect. I remember in high school when I would walk into the girls restroom and there would be girls in there putting toilet paper in the sink to clog it so that it would get all over the floor. But I find it hard to believe that grown women do the same thing. So then the question must be asked..."Where does all the water come from?"</p><br /><p><strong>2. The Smell</strong></p><br /><p>I am not trying to be inappropriate, we all know what kind of smells come from the restroom, but often, there is a different odor...one that is a little more indescribable...it just smells...odd. That is all that I can say about that.</p><br /><p><strong>3. Toilet Seat Covers</strong></p><br /><p>These little things are frustrating. Let me be the first to say, that I am pretty convinced that they do nothing in the way of protection, but I cannot bring myself to not use them. I would think that there would be no amount of showers that would make me feel clean after that. So I tolerate them. I say that they are one of the things that I hate because it always becomes a race against the clock when I use them. I carefully pull it out of the container, and without fail I rip the first one. Apparently, "Pull up, then pull down" doesn't always work the way it should. Once I manage to get on that isn't ripped, I carefully place it over the toilet. And then it falls in. So I go through the process of getting another one, and place it over the toilet again. The race is on from then, I have to prepare to use the restroom before it falls in again, and there are times where I barley catch it in time. I think toilet seat covers are out to get me. </p><br /><p><strong>4</strong>. <strong>Automatic Appliances</strong></p><br /><p>I know that the people that invented automatic appliances were trying to help the world, but really, is it worth it. First you have automatic flushing. I appreciate the thought here, I was getting tired of the balancing act that happens as I try to push down on the lever with my foot. But it makes it really frustrating when it decides to flush when you are not quite ready for it. And if it does wait for the required amount of time, then you have to stand in there until it recognizes that you have stood up, which can often take a few minutes. Then you make your way out to the automatic faucet. This is a great way to prevent the spread of germs, if they turn on. I often stand there for a few minutes trying to place my hand in the perfect position to get them to turn on, and when they finally do, they turn off once I being to actually wash my hands. I am starting to think that they have a mind of their own.</p><br /><p><strong>5. Automatic Towel Dispensers</strong></p><br /><p>I do realize that this falls into the category above, but my sheer hatred for these things forces them to be in a category all their own. I will not say much about them, this post is not meant to get heated, but man...seriously? It has taken me at least a year to figure out what it is you have to do with your hands to get the paper towles to come out. By the time I do figure it out, by sheer luck, my hands are already dry from waving them around so much. The diagram on the machine does nothing to help you. It has a hand with the lines behind it trying to symbolize movement. Yeah...thanks. </p><br /><p>Anyway, there are many more reasons that would give grounds for hesitation anytime I am out, but, these were the few that I have experienced lately. If you know of anymore, feel free to share. I am always interested in feedback. </p><br /><p>I think I can take the toilet seat covers. :) </p><br /><p></p>Kimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-698233461882534743.post-2590086175120925932008-01-24T09:24:00.000-08:002008-01-24T09:28:25.783-08:00My HeartCome, Thou Fount of every blessing,<br />Tune my heart to sing Thy grace;<br />Streams of mercy, never ceasing,<br />Call for songs of loudest praise.<br />Teach me some melodious sonnet,<br />Sung by flaming tongues above.<br />Praise the mount! I’m fixed upon it,<br />Mount of Thy redeeming love.<br /><br />Sorrowing I shall be in spirit,<br />Till released from flesh and sin,<br />Yet from what I do inherit,<br />Here Thy praises I'll begin;<br />Here I raise my <a title="Eben-Ezer" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eben-Ezer">Ebenezer</a>;<br />Here by Thy great help I’<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">ve</span> come;<br />And I hope, by Thy good pleasure,<br />Safely to arrive at home.<br /><br />Jesus sought me when a stranger,<br />Wandering from the fold of God;<br />He, to rescue me from danger,<br />Interposed His precious blood;<br />How His kindness yet pursues me<br />Mortal tongue can never tell,<br />Clothed in flesh, till death shall loose me<br />I cannot proclaim it well.<br /><br /><strong>O to grace how great a debtor</strong><br /><strong>Daily I’m constrained to be!</strong><br /><strong>Let Thy goodness, like a fetter,</strong><br /><strong>Bind my wandering heart to Thee.</strong><br /><strong>Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it,</strong><br /><strong>Prone to leave the God I love;</strong><br /><strong>Here’s my heart, O take and seal it,</strong><br /><strong>Seal it for Thy courts above.</strong><br /><br />O that day when freed from sinning,<br />I shall see Thy lovely face;<br />Clothed then in blood washed linen<br />How I’ll sing Thy sovereign grace;<br />Come, my Lord, no longer tarry,<br />Take my ransomed soul away;<br />Send thine angels now to carry<br />Me to realms of endless day.<br /><br />Robert Robinson<br /><br />I was listening to Pastor John Piper this morning and he was talking about this hymn. How fitting. May you all be blesses. :)Kimberly Mallardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04126707251228105329noreply@blogger.com1