It has been a while...

This title has a few meanings.

First, the obvious one. I have not updated this thing in forever. Something that Dain brought to my attention a few days ago. I guess, I haven't really had much to say. Not too much has changed, not too much going. Just not much. That and I found that every time I do post somethings, it just never comes out right. It never feels like I am being real or something. But I am posting...I need to. It is kinda a way to start again.

The second being that it has been a while since things have been the way they are. The next few statements are true, as much as some people may not believe it. It has been a while since I was anywhere near God, let alone actually having a relationship with Him. That statement is interesting to me. I believe in the idea of "once saved, always saved". And yet, my relationship with God lately had me doubting exactly that. If I can really go through my life with no regard to God, am I still saved, was I ever? The truth is I don't know. Honestly. Here is what I do know. I know that my heart has turned to Him once again. There was no exact moment when it happened. No alter call experience, just a process of a few months, and the outcome is me remembering all that He is, and the amount that I need Him everyday. And now the past is the past. All that I needed to do was remember my first weeks, and return to my First Love. I guess when you heart chases after other types of loves, it has no time to chase after God. But here I am again...

And the third reason...I miss my best friend. And it seems like forever since I have seen her. I know that the Lord is with her though, and that He is doing great things with her as well. But I can't wait to see her again. Love you Leese.

Hmm...way more going on, but expect posts more often, at least that is my goal. We will see how that works out.