Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Look, look, look...I posted.

I would just like to say that Blogger has kinda come and gone like Xanga did. But I'm bringing it back. :)

There has been so much that has happened since I last posted, that I can't even begin to talk about it. So I won't. All I will say is that the only thing that has been constant, is my God's love. The one constant through it all.

My prayer today, as it was last night... "God, fill my heart with Your love, so that there may be no room for anything else."

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

I am Writing a Blog..

because I haven't done that since October. But I sit here with the same problem. I'm not sure what to write about. There is school, which is almost over. I am in the middle (well more near the end) of two online RCC classes, which are very time consuming. I mean really, they end up being like 6 week classes so they have something for us to do like every minute of the week. And then I will be taking my last class at CBU for my degree. Operations Management. With Dr. Pardee. I don't know if you guys know the story behind this, so I will share it one more time. As a Business major, you have to take Business Stats. After you pass Business Stats, you then take Operations Management. Well I had Stats with Pardee last June. It was all going fine, until somehow he did not receive my last assignment...the one worth the most points, the one that made me fail the class without having it. Yeah...it was no good. I spent like two months trying to work things out with him, because I had done the work and turned it in, so I felt a little cheated...and he wanted to make sure that I actually did the work, and wasn't just trying to get a grade. So we went back and forth, I eventually got the Dean involved...and three months later I had a B in the class. However, by that time, Operations Management had already come and gone. I would have been able to graduate in December if everything would have worked out, but God had bigger plans I guess. So now I am taking the next available class...and since I am a night student, this is the only one that is available. Pray for me. Although I am pretty good at letting things go, I can't help but think this is going to be a really hard class for me. Other than that I graduate in three months (if everything goes well). I can't believe it. It has literally flown by. Graduation always leaves me a little sentimental. It just seems weird to be shutting a whole part of my life. Four years that have been the most *insert adjective here* of my life. It has really been a whole slew of things for me. And it is coming to an end...to what? I really don't know. But God does, and the more that I rest and trust in that...the better off I will be.

Work is going really well. There have been a lot of changes that have really made me enjoy my job...which I didn't think I would ever say. I don't know what I am going to do with it. There are a lot of opportunities opening up, so I am just going to wait and see what happens, and then move from there. Lord, let me not move unless You move me.

My walk has been interesting. It seems at times that adjective is the only one that fits. There has been a person in my life lately that has challenged me in such a way that it has pushed me on to something good. I think that I needed that, and I know that God knew that. So I am thankful for that, but a little cautious...I am able to change myself for one person without even knowing it. So I am doing my best to make sure that it is all coming out of a desire that I have for my God...and not a desire I have to please this person.

I have been realizing how lucky I am to have the friends that I do. I mean God really knows what He is doing. There are so many great people that have impacted my life, and I am really so lucky to know them, let alone call them friends. I just wish that I was better at showing it. But I am trying. I need to be less selfish...and I need to remember that I NEED people. I don't like to share my struggles, or my worries, or my faults...but that is not how God designed me...He created me to be surrounded by the church so that I can be built up, so that I can see Him more clearly, so that I can learn to love.

All pretty random I know, but this is my life lately.