Wednesday, April 23, 2008

A Song Running Through My Ears

"I love You. My heart is Yours only Yours Jesus. I want to give you all of me. I love You. I love You. My heart is Yours only Yours. I long to give You all of everything. My everything. Thoughts of You and how You've changed me...fill my mind."

What an amazing love song to a Savior. The purest form of love. How I long to make this my hearts cry.

Until then...I just listen and pray...

Monday, April 21, 2008

Isaiah 6:1

So with everything going on lately, the one conclusion I have come to is that God is still on His throne. And more than that, He has always been there.

Blessings have bee poured out on me lately, not because of anything in particular, but for the simple reason that I now see that everything that happens has God's workmanship all over it.

Take last night for example, one of the best times of fellowships Alyssa and I have had in a LONG time. And you know why? God has continued to take us through the same situations at the same time. I think that He does this so that at the end of it we can both sit together and love our Savior. Pretty sweet idea.

Okay, so moving on to church. I think I need to find a home. Since I left Harvest, I have never really felt a sense of being where I belonged. This poses a problem in that I know that God has called me out of Harvest. For the past few months I feel as if I have been swaying back and forth trying to find a place I belong. I know that I need to be in fellowship, and there has been proof that I do not survive long outside of fellowship, worship, and teaching. And Norco has been great. They have been loving and exhorting. My only problem...I don't make friends well. I have people there that I love and care about, Dain and Anthony, in particular, and they have been great as far as trying their best to help me feel at ease. But I am able to go and sit by myself and leave. I do not feel like I have connected with anyone that I didn't know from Harvest. This is my fault. I do not step outside of my comfort zone much. And the idea of walking up and talking to people that I do not know, frankly freaks me out. So I feel...stuck I guess.

The whole point of all of this is to ask for you guys to pray for me. Pray that I will find somewhere that feels like home. And if Norco is that place for me, pray that the Lord will bring me out of my comfort zone and work in my heart.

God is too good to keep silent about. He truly is too good.

Thursday, April 3, 2008


I have been thinking a lot about friendhsip lately. The way that things change the way that friendships have the ability to be molded into something completly differnt than they ever started out being. There may only be a few that I choose to invest a significant amount of time in, but there are many that I hold dear to my heart. Many of these friendships can go a few weeks or months without significant interaction, but when we do get the opportunity to reunite, it is as if only a few days had gone by. I do cherish these friendships.

I often feel like in order to invest time in people I am not used to seeing, it takes a gret deal of effort, a great amount of planning, and a whole lot of energy that I don't have. But I am often reminded that when I do these things that I am more blessed than I can even imagine.

There are things that will change in life, nothing ever stays the same. But I have found that I will have friends that will be with me until the day that we die. And I only hope that you are able to find the same.

Friends truly are a blessing from God, if you will allow them to be...